Ah the craziness of a wedding. Nothing like it to take away anything worth worrying about. So. Yeah. Not much to blog about at the moment. My sister is getting married saturday for those who don't know. There will be pictures. I might scan and post them. Oh and something else I thought about, once I get settled back in my place, wherever that is, I can now have a webcam and not have to worry about getting in trouble. HEHE! So yeah, I think I'll do that. Yay rah! Something to look forward to. It's cold in this room. My hands are freezing. My dad is sick and has been in bed all day at the hotel. My mom and sister keep biting each others heads off and then hugging afterward. I will officially buy one of those getaway wedding package things where you can pay a flat rate and invite like 50 people and have all the plans done for you in the Bahamas or some crazy place like that. So if you want to go to my wedding, (whenever that will be), you better start kissing my rear now! :) Just kidding. Okay I gotta get up outta here and go sweep a floor or carve an ice sculpture or something.
says MarissaD at 1/31/2002 06:29:00 PM
January 27, 2002
Ah I'm so sick of this rollercoaster. Happy and peaceful for awhile, stressed and miserable for awhile. Seeing Tom and Wendy here all settled makes me want that. To be settled. I don't want this wishy washy not knowing what's happening stuff. It's tiring and not fulfilling.
says MarissaD at 1/27/2002 05:42:00 PM
Ah this was an excellent decision. To come visit the cousin and husband. Nice to have a conversation and not have to think about things that are going on. Very good for me. Very telling of things of the heart I think. An escape for my mind. Yay. Maybe the mental healing is happening now. Of course I've been given a sleeping pill which would normally make me pass out immediately. But I haven't passed out. So I'm in a state of niceness and don't-have-to-think-about-itness. I'll sleep well. Maybe I'll go to sleep soon. Or not. Someone to chat with. YAY! And it's only 3:30 am. Hm.
says MarissaD at 1/27/2002 03:26:00 AM
January 26, 2002
Okay. I've always watched The Real World. It was my embarrassing because I liked it. I just stumbled upon the latest season and I'm pretty sure I've grown out of it. Either that or this season is just way, way beyond my entertainment threshold. Man, remember the first seasons? It was so weird! They weren't movie star wannabes. They weren't drama queens except for Puck! Now everyone is a Puck. I know exactly why they pick these types of people, but they're killing the show. Maybe this is why Indie kids get so pissed off when their bands sell-out. I know that's like sacrilege to the Indie culture, to compare The Real World to the superbly underground bands. But it's just the end effect that I'm comparing here. As ironic as it is. Maybe it's just newness of it. Are they all super drama freaks on the first episode? All you anti-Real World zealots need to just shut your mouths because I already know what you're saying and I am deaf to your words!
Oh another episode. Gotta go.
says MarissaD at 1/26/2002 12:04:00 PM
January 25, 2002
And the job search continues. Larger market in Dallas, so maybe it will be a little easier. I ate a piece of pizza. I'm still pretty sure my stomach isn't ready for food yet. It does not feel so good. I missed broadband. Ben has it. I'm jealous. With my first paycheck I'm going to the movies. I haven't been in a really long time. Or maybe bungee jumping. Haven't done that in awhile. Just something fun.
And now for people I've somewhat ignored the last few months. Misti, you need to post more! Lor, I'm proud of ATG! I wish I could've been more a part of it. Sorry. :( Sammy, I left without even meeting you. Sorry. :( Tay, thanks for all your help. Someday you'll find your gal. Tom, when I get a job, we'll be able to AIM isntead of work again. Anyone who reads my blog, sorry I've neglected ya.
Any friends I have in the Dallas area, feel free to email me and lets go do something. I need company. Lots of it. Please, PLEASE! Okay I'll stop begging. I'm going to watch TV and play with a little rat/dog named Tequila.
says MarissaD at 1/25/2002 08:47:00 PM
And now I'm back in Texas! It was nice to drive by the Dallas skyline again and know that this time I don't have to leave. I love being here. I love this town. As bitter-sweet as my coming here may be, I'm glad to be here. So many friends and family here. That's what I really need. My uncle wants my resume for a job, my cousin can hook me up with a job and is going to help me find an apartment somewhere, my ex-roomate will probably hang out with me even though I'll be a boring bump on a log. I plan on contacting some of my old high school friends that are in the area. I can't wait to start working again. I'm dreading moving all my stuff again. And I still have to deal with the apartment stuff in AR. Hopefully it will work out nicely, but if it doesn't my mom says "Your fathers boss is a lawyer and he will help!" Well okay. I'm seriously glad my family and friends are so helpful. And I'm glad to be in Dallas.
says MarissaD at 1/25/2002 01:53:00 PM
January 24, 2002
I'm doing really well. If I didn't have my mom and a Bible, I'd probably be looking pretty bad right about now. I can say that somehow I'm going through the phases of a breakup pretty quickly. I'm not mad at Ryan for the decision he made. In fact I'm pretty sure if he hadn't made that decision now, I would have done it eventually. Neither of us were ready for where we were. The timing of me moving there and all is, well, horrible. But it's not his own fault that it happened like that. I packed my things up and moved there. I took the chance. I knew it was a chance. And I'm not saying it's all my fault either. I guess what I'm saying is, I'm going to start moving on now. I'm not going to dwell on it or try to figure out what happened. It's okay. I know I'm going to be fine. Thanks for all the worrying and the words and emails from the people who sent them. And thanks for the thoughts and gestures and all. Geez it's not like anyone died. I don't know why I'm making such a big deal of this. :P
Onward.
says MarissaD at 1/24/2002 12:46:00 PM
January 22, 2002
Well, things have changed. I'll be moving back to Texas in the next few days. I haven't decided if I want to blog all about it yet or not. I'd rather not have any comments on this, as it's hard enough with my own thoughts in my head. All I can say is thank you Lord for my parents. Not really much to say publically at this point. I've asked Tay to make some changes to the menu part of the site. Over there to the right. If you haven't yet figured out what is happening, I'm sure you will when you notice the changes over there. See you in Dallas.
says MarissaD at 1/22/2002 01:53:00 PM
January 16, 2002
Yeah, yeah. I know it's not Christmas anymore. I've never really done anything holiday spirit oriented other than the time Misti, Amanda and I took a picture and had cards made and sent them out. I consider my leaving this Merry Christmas picture up a make-up for all the years of non-Christmas that I had. Either that or I'm like the lazy white trash people down the street that leave their lights up til Easter and then decide it's close enough to Christmas so why not just leave them up? Maybe I will. And you'll like it. Misti!
Those were some good blogs. Long. Nice. Misti is a champ. Click on her link there to the right. She's still my best friend. And she was mushy about me. She does that a lot lately. Congrats on the new hair dryer, dear.
I'm still out of a job. I hate it. I need the money and the routine back already! Had an interview this morning and I should find out by next week if I get it or not. It pays a lot. I hope I get it.
I've cooked way more food than I have in my whole life. Granted it's mostly grilled cheese sandwhiches, but it's cheap man! My online time is still limited. Good thing - I got a library card and they have computers there. Bad thing - I didn't physically get the library card yet because they had to mail it to me so I can't check in to use the computers. I'm still using Ryan's. On the library note, I read one of the books I checked out already. I checked it out on Sunday and had it finished last night. Not bad. I forgot how fast I read when I like a book. Now I'm reading The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy. I get why all those people wore their little towels when Douglas Adams died now. It's pretty funny. A complete opposite to the 2nd book in the Left Behind series. It's a nice change for the reading phase I'm in. Okay it's time for me to go now. Hope to talk to you soon. If you have my phone number you can call me ANY TIME. I'm unable to dial long distance so the only person I ever get to call is Ryan because he's a local call. If you want my phone number and you aren't a certified stalker (which would actually be fine, so long as you will actually talk to me (read - sarcasm)), you can ask me for my number or address for that matter if you want to write. Allrighty that's a run-on if I ever saw one and I'm out.
says MarissaD at 1/16/2002 04:46:00 PM
January 12, 2002
Ah yes. I noticed on this computer that my comments feature isn't working. I'm not sure if that's due to this computer or if they are actually broken. That would suck if they were broken. Anywho, my email always works. And I don't ever consider someone who takes the time to email me a stalker. I've heard people say they were scared to email about little blog stuff for fear they would be labeled a stalker. If I were to ever have an email stalker, the correspondence would actually be welcomed, as I don't get much of it. Good grief I'm talking like my mother. Okay bye then!
says MarissaD at 1/12/2002 04:10:00 PM
Thanks to the handiness of blogger I can even blog from my Papa's house and I'm pretty sure his computer was made before the 90's, so this is an accomplishment. No, not really. In fact his computer is probably better than my computer which shall I say isn't my computer anymore because my gracious cousin Richard decided to throw together a bunch of old spare pieces and give me the results! Which are sadly way better than my computer, so YAY! I'm getting a new(ish) computer.
In other news, Tay is back. An email from him is actually what prompted me to post. Yay and welcome back TaylorMcFrally. I just made that name up. I'm so clever. Hope you had fun with the French people. Sorry about your bowel issues. I'm sure that's something you wanted me to publicize, yet you already publicized it so that's okay.
I am here with family on our late Christmas Day. It happens like this pretty much every year because today is actually my Papa's (grandfather for those not southernly inclined) birthday. We usually end up celebrating Christmas and his and another family relatives birthday on this weekend every year. It's usually pretty nice. This time Ryan is with me and we only get to stay until tonight. That's allright. We have things to do in Arkansas.
I think I might have a job waiting for me to start on Tuesday. An interview I had went pretty well. But it's not the high paying job that I wanted. I don't know if I posted that in the last one or not. There was a possibility for a 25k-30k job, but the lady never actually called me to setup the interview, so I went to another interview at a fancy shmancy country club. That actually seems like someting I would enjoy. The people were nice and It's a really nice place. Anyway, no word yet as to whether or not I'll get that job. I'll keep all of you people who are waiting on baited breath, or something like that. When I get around my family these types of phrases come out of my mouth a lot. Don't ask.
Arkansas life is going okay. Like I mentioned, I don't have a job just yet, but I might, so that might be good soon. I hear of a new family member that reads this page everyday. To all my family members, Hi! Mist, thanks for emailing me! Miss you tons. I'm out.
says MarissaD at 1/12/2002 04:06:00 PM
January 05, 2002
WOO! Misti blogged! Twice! Misti please email me already. I tried to send one to you by guessing your email address, but it bounced back so it was wrong. So email me please cuz I'm doing email more than blogging now. K thanks.
We went to this show tonight at Clunk. That's a place that has rock shows a lot. It's where Ryan's band plays when they're home. There was a band called Meek and the dude sounded a bit like Brandon from Incubus. I thought they were allright, but I don't really know much about music. I just listen and I either like it or I don't. The band after Meek was called Shattered or Evil Satanic Wannabe Screamers or something like that. They yelled a lot and said Mother F---er a lot. They were neat. I was thoroughly impressed. Oh wait, no I wasn't. My mistake.
It was fun though. And free. Which is a good thing. Did I mention I'm one poor gal? Yup I am. It's neat. I'll be eating Ramen a lot for the next few weeks.
My apartment is cute. I likes. I'm beyond thrilled to be living in the same vicinity as my boyfriend. I miss my family and Misti a lot, but I'm happy to be living alone again. I walked into my apartment last night and just kind of giggled and jumped up and down for a few minutes. I'm excited.
Holly is a friend of the bands here and she seems really cool. She's going to teach me how to cook and we're gonna hang out I hope. I like her a lot. We'll see how it goes.
Enough with the excited, fun filled life of me! How about you?! How are YOU doing? Tell me. I seriously need everyone to tell me how they are!
says MarissaD at 1/05/2002 11:54:00 PM
January 02, 2002
Well Happy New Year! I'm still at the parents house. We were going to leave on the 31st to head back to Arkansas, but some roads were apparently closed down in between here and there so we decided to wait until it cleared up a little. I'm staring out the window and there is still snow on the ground, but I guess it's okay. It didn't snow anymore, it just hasn't all melted. Roads should be fine I think. We'll see.
I've been so nervous and anxious to get back. I'm ready to get myself moved in. I'm so excited to live alone again. I went through my shopping list this morning while I was laying in bed, waiting to get up. I woke up at about 5, but I didn't want to be the only one up, so I waited til I heard dad moving around at about 6. I thought about a lot of things I have to take care of in the next week. Wrote it all down so I wouldn't forget anything. Bills, bills, bills. And I get to start working again. This is such a good thing. It's time for some repitition in my life again.
I helped Andra make some of her wedding invitations last night. They are really pretty. She's getting married on February 2nd. Which is 02/02/02. Kind of neat, I think. It's going to be crazy around here for the next month. I'm glad I'm moving. :) I guess I'm going to go take a shower now. I have a lot to do today.
Oh yeah. For my net friends, I'm sorry I haven't been paying much attention lately. I've been so busy. I'm sure you all understand. I miss all of ya lots and I'll be back to email and such soon. Don't forget, I use bemoedee@hotmail.com now. Please use that instead of any other address you might have. Thanks! Bye now!
