I have to pump P.O.D. a little bit here. I really, really love the new album, Satellite. I suggest you go and buy it. It's very good.
says MarissaD at 9/30/2001 12:31:00 PM
I see joo! That's an old graphic from last year. I went through a lot of my old stuff the other day. I really like that one. Even though it looks a lot better when it's small like it's supposed to be. Today, my head doesn't hurt. I got up at 10 like yesterday, but I went to bed at like 2:30 so I didn't sleep as much. And as intriguing as my sleeping patterns are, I'm going to end this post before you, yes sir, you in the back sir ... before you gouge your own eyeball out. Farewell.
says MarissaD at 9/30/2001 12:24:00 PM
September 29, 2001
Head. Hurts. 8 hours of headache. Please go away.
I bought a lot of crap at the grocery store. A lot of crap I don't really need but I'm glad I got. We didn't get much food. That's sort of ironic. Cereal, juice, apples. That's pretty much it. Then I spent like $50 or $60 on makeup and some candles and this lavendar room spray. At least it smells nice while my head is pounding. I'm so bored. Guess I'll go play EQ. You'd think I would be sick of that game after 2 years. I am. Right then. I'll be in game. /wave
says MarissaD at 9/29/2001 05:37:00 PM
My head hurts. I always look forward to the weekends so that I can do nothing. I always forget that doing nothing makes my head hurt like a mofo. So I slept late today, til 10:00. By then I was staring at the clock, feeling my head pulse, not wanting to get up, but knowing if I didn't it would just feel worse. So I got up, with nothing to do. No reason to take a shower. And it hurts. I'm keenly aware that if I just lay around the house all day I will feel like crap. So instead of having the first peaceful, alone weekend in a long time, I'm going to shower and go to the grocery store with my sister and maybe wash my car. I'm so stressed out. I think way too much about things that do not need to be thought about. :( back later maybe.
says MarissaD at 9/29/2001 12:53:00 PM
My sis had me build her a blog. Anyone else in the family? Anyone? Anyone? I need to make a section just for familial blog links.
says MarissaD at 9/29/2001 12:48:00 PM
September 28, 2001
Feeling much better this AM. Got to talk to Ryan frickin FINALLY. He's sick. He needs to rest, but he can't so he'll probably be sick for a few weeks. Neat. They have a show in Tacoma today. I think it's today. I'm pretty sure. The 28th. Yeah that's today. Makes me a little tiny bit nervous. Him going back home. To everything that I wasn't a part of for his entire life. I know. Irrational and stupid. I know. It's not even worth an acknowledgement, so I'll pretend I didn't even think it.
I took defensive driving last night and the night before. My mom and I attended together. That was an experience. I learned that my mom is the nerd who answers every single question the teacher asks. I told her to stop being a know-it-all but she insisted she could teach the class, she's taken it so many times. True. Same for me. I knew all the answers too, but I wasn't calling them all out making the sleeping people in the back (me) look bad. Ah well. She paid for my dinner. And really, it was fun to take it with her. I didn't feel as alone as I normally do when I take that class (once a year.) And she really is funny. And cute. Man my mom rocks.
I'm not panicking anymore. For the moment. I think it was hormonal. That always throws me off. I really am happy where I am. I guess sometimes I get stir crazy. Who doesn't? Ah well. Moving on.
says MarissaD at 9/28/2001 08:27:00 AM
September 27, 2001
Why am I feeling so emotional lately? I found some of Ryan's shirts in the laundry the other day. I'm wearing one of them today, but it doesn't smell like him anymore, it smells like me and that pisses me off. And makes me cry. Then I started thinking about how he tugs at the bottom of his shirts right after he puts them on. Just to make sure it's all straight I guess. We didn't talk yesterday. I don't want to slap the hand that feeds me, but Sprint is really starting to piss me off with it's service in California. I really need to spend a week or two with him. Really badly. It's aching and I just want to leave everything here to go with him. And I can't. And I'm starting to feel that gypsy call again. Ready to leave. Ready for change. I need therapy.
says MarissaD at 9/27/2001 03:08:00 PM
September 25, 2001
Panic! PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC --------------------------------------- job. Should I stay or should I go? I've been here over a year. I like it. Mostly. Kinda. I'm panicking again. what to do what to do.
says MarissaD at 9/25/2001 05:11:00 PM
Oh, I also stuck a neat playlist over there with songs for you to DL. That's my playlist right now and it's superb, I must say.
says MarissaD at 9/25/2001 03:03:00 PM
I took off the link for my wishlist thingy. The more I thought about it the less I wanted that to be public. I set it up for fun for me, but if someone were to actually buy me something I would feel bad and weird. Plus I'm pretty sure Ryan wouldn't think this is the bestest idea. :P So I'll continue to keep my wishlist and I'll continue to shop. Oh yes. But it will be in the privacy of my browser and no one else's.
says MarissaD at 9/25/2001 02:56:00 PM
September 24, 2001
I'm going to watch a movie with Misti tonight. Sweet November I think it's called. Should be fun. I miss Ryan. A lot. It's a little heartbreaking honestly. A lot, actually. I've been thinking about doing a wishlist for amazon.com. hehe That's so retarted. I think I'll do one and just not put it up here. I just want to be able to pick stuff out. I would feel like crap if someone actually bought me anything from it. Yes I'll do that. So as to control my huge spending urges. Not that I'm doing badly in controlling them..... I'm going to Misti's.
says MarissaD at 9/24/2001 06:04:00 PM
September 23, 2001
Gotta give props to the Aggie's. They sold red, white and blue t-shirts for the respective decks at the football field. It worked. I'm assuming proceeds are going to some relief fund for the tragedy. That's pretty awesome.
So I was visiting ThinkGeek.com, and they had some cool stuff. And yesterday I was visiting DeLiA's and almost spent $100.00, but thought better of it when I thought of Ryan and my mom's reactions. So I decided, to appease myself, so that I can shop without spending money, I made some wishlists. I don't expect to get anything from them. Except maybe from my moms when my birthday comes around, *cough*December 14*cough*. Anywho, I put them up. Putting stuff on a wishlist is almost as fun as actually buying the stuff! The weird part about that is, I don't actually get as excited when I get the stuff I buy in the mail. I just like picking it all out and then buying it. So good! Good for me! I'm saving money!
One of the worst calls you can possibly receive is from a person who knows they are computer illiterate, but know that they know just enough to get by. Lemme 'splain. No, no, too much. Lemme sum up. (Free T-Shirt if you can tell me what movie that's from. Ryan, you don't count.) This is the person who calls for help because he is not completely confident in himself, but once he gets a tech on the phone he knows all the answers. Not only is he a pseudo know-it-all, he's also a brancher. Let me just show you by conversation:
Customer: Okay, I'm having problems with my email. I got this computer a few years ago from my son who is an engineer at the University of Texas. He graduated in '97 and married Bertha. They live in Minnesota now and have 6 dogs, 3 cats, a lizard, a rooster and a baby. Cute baby..(etc...) Anyway, I'm pretty sure I have everything setup correctly. I double checked the incoming and outgoing mail servers and my username and password and I'm getting an error message that says "Could not log on to the server using secure password authentication." Me: *take a breath to start to fix the problem* Okay, you have Outlook Express open right now? Customer: Yes. Me: Okay click on..... Customer: Another thing I just looked at, when I have the accounts here in the account properties window, it doesn't say what I want it to say. I'd like it to say my name instead of *whateverstupidthinghehasintherenow* Me: Okay.... first lets get to the first problem you were having. Go ahead and click on Tools and then Accounts in Outlook Express for me. Customer: Okay got it Me: Ok, now you should be on the mail tab Customer: Right. Me: Now click on Properties over to your........ Customer: Well now hold on. There is an account in here from my old ISP! How do I remove it? Oh, I'll just highlight it and click remove, that should work. Yeah there we go. Okay now what were you saying? Me: *silent sigh* Okay. Highlight your mail account with us and click on Properties. Customer: Ok done. Me: Okay click on the Servers tab. Customer: Oh now wait a minute, this doesn't look right. The email address here is not right. Me: Sir, click on the servers tab. Customer: Okay.. Me: Remove the check mark from the box that says Logon Using Secure Password Authentication, click Apply, Ok, Close, Send/Receive. Customer: It worked!! Thanks!! Now, lets talk about screen savers for a moment. Me: You don't need screen savers. Disable them. If you're scared you'll mess up your monitor when you leave your computer on, turn the monitor off. Thank you for calling have a nice day.*click*
Wil Wheaton warned us that he may lose some readers over his opinions. Thus far I haven't seen any of his own, but he sure likes to copy and paste articles that he agrees with. His latest linked article I'll not link to him or the article, as I don't really want to promote the attitude he is encouraging. Just to sum it up, the article is complaining about "right-wing republicans" flying the American flag everywhere. To the author, flying the flag stands for something different than everyone else. Now there is a profound statement he's making. He stands for something and it is different than a lot of other people in this country. BACK UP THE BUS THERE BUDDY! That's an amazing concept! Now how about you stop criticizing people for wanting to fly an American flag to show their support!? I'll bet you that the soldiers that are being deployed kind of LIKE being reminded that they are supported by everyone on the block. And no, not everyone can go and fight, so flying a flag just might be something they feel they can do to show support. Just because I have a flag on my sliding glass door outside does not mean that I want to "go over there and burn those ragheads." That is so ridiculous. I'm already sick of having to worry about people here who are criticizing the President and every single person they see who isn't reacting the way they think they should. Could you please just close your mouth and be proud of something in this country for once? I'm not exactly ecstatic about things I've learned recently about this country, but at least I'm not the first person to say I could do a better job.
Bleh I can't even finish this. I can't put into words how I feel about that article. Can we please have some unity here? Not everyone is bloodthirsty and ready to blow Afghanistan up. We just want the retribution that is deserved. This reminds me of little kids that are asked to hold hands in a circle. There are always a few kids who won't hold the hand of the kid next to them. They'll throw a hissy fit until they can move. Just shut up and hold someone's hand already.
says MarissaD at 9/18/2001 07:21:00 AM
September 17, 2001
Everyone knows of the whole idea that we all know everyone in the world through 6 people? It turns out that I may possible know Osama Bin Laden through 3 people. That is quite possibly the scariest thing I've heard since the attacks started. Is this a situation where you inform police? Even though it's not direct? I know someone who knows someone who quite possibly is a part of Bin Laden's crew. I'm a bit freaked out. Yeah..
says MarissaD at 9/17/2001 04:29:00 PM
Well, I saw Ryan and his band. They had an awesome show in Dallas. Not as many people were there this time. Last time it was pretty packed at that club. There was also a Cake concert down the street. I'm not completely sure who that is, but I know the name so I know they're big, which is bad, but it's okay. They got there at like 2ish on Saturday so we got to hang out for 4 hours or so. Downtown Dallas. Just me and my Ry. It was awesome. We went to the 6th Floor Museum, which is the book depository where Lee Harvey Oswald shot President Kennedy from. We saw the window Oswald was perched on. It was weird and sad, but not really worth the $9 they charged for us to get in. They had an audio tour where they could listen to the audio guide read the captions that were on every picture they had. There wasn't really anything that you would think a museum would have. Like physical objects from that day. They had the actual window frame where Oswald shot from. The guy that owned the depository took it out not long after the shooting because he didn't want people to destroy it. His son returned it to the museum in 1994 where it is encased in a glass box. *shrug* Just a little bit of history. We had fun. After that we went and snuggled on the grassy noll. We sat next to the spot where President Kennedy was assasinated. I think we were more focused on each other though. Yay! We love!
In Middle East news, I've been learning a whole lot about the past and present of that situation. Political, Biblical and Spiritual. If you would like to discuss these things or have any questions you think I might be able to answer, feel free to chat with me. Otherwise there is way too much for me to blog. If I started writing what I'm learning, I would never stop.
We would like to correct a report that appeared on CNN. Based on information from multiple law enforcement sources, CNN reported that Adnan Bukhari and Ameer Bukhari of Vero Beach Florida, were suspected to be two of the pilots who crashed planes into the World Trade Center. CNN later learned that Adnan Bukhari is still in Florida, where he was questioned by the FBI. We are sorry for the misinformation. A federal law enforcement source now tells CNN that Bukhari passed an FBI polygraph and is not considered a suspect. Through his attorney, Bukhari says that he is helping authorities. Ameer Bukhari died in a small plane crash last year.
(from cnn)
I don't know if this means the terrorists didn't train in the U.S. at all or if it just means those two names that were brought up before were incorrect. I know I didn't say the names. I didn't even link to where I read it, but I still encouraged the thought. While my thoughts are still in my head and still relevant to me, I don't want to accuse ANYone who isn't at all involved, nor do I condone that. This is hard. I still have these caution flags waving my head, but I the last thing I want is for the entire nation to be racist because of this. *sigh* Where's the balance?
I took the America article down. While I still think it's an awesome article and inspires patriotism in a lot of people, too many are criticizing it and calling it a hoax. Yes, it was written almost 30 years ago, but it still speaks well of my country. I don't really feel like defending it and I'm sure by now almost everyone has seen it, so it's useless to have it linked here. IMO it's still a good read if you're feeling defeated during these times.
says MarissaD at 9/13/2001 06:06:00 PM
A few funny things. Firstly, a nice picture. It's funny and has a little bit to it. Here.
Next up. This is kind of a Tech Support thing. I didn't realize how funny it is when someone refers to an email as 'heavily cryptic,' when they actually mean 'heavily encrypted.' Made me giggle a little. You? A little? Not even a tiny bit? Whatever.
says MarissaD at 9/13/2001 03:46:00 PM
Tech Support Mode
There is a certain company here in this fine desolate town I live in that has a network of over 125 computers. Their IT person is trying to find a company to host mail for them. Let's call him Mr. Notsosmart. Mr. Notsosmart has called up here 5 times today. He supposedly has a ISDN connection through a major caffeine drink making company we will call Moca Mola. Anywho, Mr. Notsosmart was provided email accounts through Moca Mola, but isn't actually a part of the Moca Mola industry, so they would like their own email. I explained that we can do that for him and suggested Outlook Express or Microsoft Outlook as a program for him to use on his ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY FIVE computer network. To which he replied, "For email? Outlook Express? Never heard of it." So yeah. I should be working at his job making whatever they pay him to be the head IT guy. Sheesh.
says MarissaD at 9/13/2001 02:18:00 PM
Tay has been reading. What he is discussing is extremely interesting. If you are asking "why??", read what he is telling us. We are becoming educated. This is why.
says MarissaD at 9/13/2001 01:59:00 PM
September 12, 2001
Am I Overanalyzing?
My thoughts in the past 33 hours have been pretty erratic. At first there was shock, fear, sadness. Now I can't help but feel curious and cautious. Overly? Yes, probably. But here's what I've been pondering.
Sometime in my past, it was brought to my attention that terrorist groups such as those of Osama bin Laden often send members of their little "cult" over to America to be integrated into our society. There is a possibility that the attackers in NYC and DC had actually lived here, on U.S. soil for several years. It's already a known fact that the terrorist pilots actually trained for flying passenger planes in Florida. Yes, here, we taught them how to destroy us. If you think about the ramifications of this, they are actually quite horridous. There are several million Muslims that have moved to the U.S. in the last 5-10 years. Imagine if 10% of those were associated with some type of terrorist group. Imagine the power they have. Striking from within, with no warning. The attack September 11th may seem huge to us now. Imagine if there were 10,000 terrorists acting nationwide, simultaneously. Not necissarily in the same fashion, because now we know the power they have with hijacking, and now of course security is going to become fiercly tight.
Another point to be considered: there are confirmed reports that some terrorist groups sent threats to the United States. Groups that are so closely monitored that we took it seriously enough to react. We reacted there. Not here, on our turf. Shortly after an attack was threatened in recent months, our government made efforts in the Middle East to prepare for them. Not here, on our turf. The terrorist groups monitored this. They watched how we reacted. They watched where we did take precautions, but more importantly, where we did not take precautions. Which was, of course, here, on our turf. They found our weak spots by crying wolf and they used that to their advantage. They are more informed than we think they are. Not because they have all this high tech data intercepting equipment, but because they watch us. And they learn. Much like those crazy dinosaurs in Jurassic Park.
So after my bit of rant, what do you think? Is it overreaction? Is it substantiated? Do we give terrorists too much credit or do we completely underestimate their power? Was this most recent attack a tip or was it the ice berg? I, of course, hope for the best. But I can't help but ponder the worst. __________________________________________
says MarissaD at 9/12/2001 06:14:00 PM
Okay so I haven't been very productive at work today. :) There are a few more links to some WTC/DC bloggers I've found. All of these are usually found through other bloggers and through the search at Blogger.Com. I just thought it might be useful to have them all together for some people. If you find one you want to add to my list, let me know. There is also an awesome article below the flag up there written by a nice Canadian. I found that on a MB from a post by Sara a.k.a. GadgetGirl. If you haven't noticed the link further down, Amazon.Com has an awesome relief fund going via the web. It is astounding how fast it's rising. Thanks to DR3 for that link. As he says "That's the power of the net."
I'm not quite so shocked and surprised anymore. Now I feel like the 10-year-old child who used to be so care free until some tragic emotional event stole all innocence away. I don't feel secure and safe in my own town. Walking across my own parking lot. It isn't an overbearing fear, but it's a fear that has never really been present in my life. I love my country. I will stand proud that we can overcome any obstacle. But there's still a little girl in me that feels vulnerable.
For those that have no clue where Pakistan and Afghanistan etc... are on the map, Tay looked it up so we could decide if they were in fact countries or cities. Yes. We were ignorant. Anglo-centric as he referred to it. Well we're choosing to educate ourselves now.
says MarissaD at 9/11/2001 03:22:00 PM
I've been to quite a few blogs of some NY area people. They are updating regularly and some have some pictures they've taken of the buildling collapses. I'll link them as I find them.
Here's something else that pisses me off. Pong ... okay fun game, right? Well it pisses me off that when I win, I get like 2 points for winning, and when the compuer wins, he gets like 80. That's bs.
says MarissaD at 9/10/2001 05:58:00 PM
I hate so many people at this moment. I'm having major temperamental issues. Please stop pissing me off because you think it's funny. It's not, at all.
says MarissaD at 9/10/2001 02:33:00 PM
Oh great. Today is going to be emotional. I hate hormones. :(
says MarissaD at 9/10/2001 09:28:00 AM
Do. NOT. Be. Rude. To. Me. It's way to early on a Monday morning for that.
says MarissaD at 9/10/2001 08:26:00 AM
September 07, 2001
While we're on the topic of music, if you have these CD's, you should listen to them in this order:
If you don't have these CD's and are looking for some audio pleasure, I would suggest investing in them.
says MarissaD at 9/07/2001 12:21:00 PM
I'm beginning to develop a little bit of an obsession with Incubus. They're going to be in concert in Dallas, but it's on a Wednesday and that sucks a whole lotta you know what. But I don't like Brandon's hair now. Not that it's any of my bees wax. I still love them. A lot. I'm excited for the new album to come out. October 23. Neat.
says MarissaD at 9/07/2001 12:02:00 PM
MyParkingTicket.Com - This is a good idea and a friend of mine is a part of the team, so I thought I'd push the site a little. Link this site on your Random or Helpful links page, please! Spread the word! Help a startup get big! From what I understand, they're already doing okay, but they lack in the advertising department, so word of mouth is their only hope. Let's help them!
Hrmph. I had a brain sneeze and figured out what was wrong with my archives. They're now available here or over there on the right.
says MarissaD at 9/06/2001 04:33:00 PM
Okay that was entirely shoved up. I dug through our new tub of Dubble Bubble, which has an enticing ad on the outside that says "Free *NSYNC CD or Sticker in Every Tub!!" Of course I was giddy with pleasure to see what was at the bottom of the tub. It was a CD. I was excited. I put it in. It was an HTML file with links to *NSYNC's website, to Dubble Bubble's website and one to click2music.com. It said there was supposed to be a song on it. "A never before released on CD" song too. I searched the whole CD. There was no song. They're liars. I'd be pissed if I had bought that tub of Dubble Bubble just to get a CD or a sticker. Jerks.
says MarissaD at 9/06/2001 04:27:00 PM
smartass.nu - LOL This little rant about a jerk fish totally reminded me of when I lived in Denton and my cousins and I invested in some fish. We had one little heathen fish too! And you know what? I didn't make any of the other fish leave! I did flush him down the toilet live. I don't care if I paid $30 for him, if he's eating the fins of the others, that's cannibalism and is deserving of a flush in my book. Ahhh that was very rewarding. Well, mostly. I was kind of torturing him in the toilet before I flushed it. I would start to flush it, then not. So it would suck him down a little and he would swim as fast as he could to keep away from the sucking. I know what you're thinking .... I'm not an evil person, despite what Tom may ponder. I watched this a-hole fish torture all the other fish for over a month. Everyday!! So anywho, he wised up while I was torturing him and decided to just swim down the dark scary hole. So I never technically got to flush him. Yeah, that's what her rant reminded me of.
says MarissaD at 9/06/2001 02:52:00 PM
Tech Support Mode
I know it's mean. I know they can't help it. This is a report I just entered for the last call I had. Come on people!!!
Incident for Customer ID XXXX - Jane Doe Called tech support.... Said she couldn't get the Internet on her computer.... Explained her procedure of dialing in and said 'it just sat there' and she 'couldn't do anything with it.' Showed her how to open a browser. MF
says MarissaD at 9/06/2001 02:33:00 PM
I just noticed that my first three blogs yesterday were all at 32 after the hour. Weird!
says MarissaD at 9/06/2001 01:17:00 PM
September 05, 2001
Get Rid of X10 Ads - From Brooklynkid. I know some of you hate it when people link from other links in other blogs, but this is a freakin useful link and you know it.
says MarissaD at 9/05/2001 09:13:00 PM
There are a lot of people who get stuck on this here 'net. For most of them, it's something they need. For me, it was something I desperately needed. I was stuck here, with all of my online friends and games and sites. For a long time. I thrived on it. Most of my life revolved around it. There are so many people that I see daily that are in the same exact situation I was. When you realize it truly is an addiction and an addiction you don't need to live, you stop justifying it. You stop telling yourself and people around you that these people are real people and they love you and you couldn't imagine your life without them. Because your life does proceed without them, every.single.day. They are not in your life. They see what you let them see and they retain what they want to retain. Everything else is archived, forgotten or ignored. Physical people see exactly what you are. And friends are people you have relationships with despite your differences and flaws. They are people who love you for everything you are, which, I'm sorry, can not be displayed through a community or a blog or a webcam. When I finally moved on from this loverly place and went back to my real life, I noticed several things fall into place. The real friendships that I cussed began to blossom. The responsibilities I shunned became a delight. The life that I loathed became lovable. The friends I met and people I learned about will not be forgotten. I'm very thankful I had them. But I'm glad I stopped lying to myself about how important they were to me, when in reality, that was just a way for me to ignore the fact that I wasn't important to me. I let my life crumble during my bout with Internet dependance and depression. It's easy to look back and realize that it was such a simple fix. Hind-sight. It makes me smile when I see other people coming to this realization. When you start taking "online" with a grain of salt, you start loving and appreciating what your life is really worth and you stop wasting all of your time reaching for that cyber haven.
I decided not to sum up my weekend with the marrieds and the bachelorettes. Misti did it for me. Read there. Pretty much tells all.
An update to my tech support rant about misusing the term "download", Tom decided to tackle my plea. If it confuses you, here's the short version: The only time you download is when you copy a file from another server via your Internet connection to your hard drive. If you think I'm wrong, I don't care. No, really. I don't.
says MarissaD at 9/04/2001 12:58:00 PM
September 03, 2001
Okay so, fights suck when you're having them, but awesome when they make you love the person you're with even more than before. How can you not love the guy on the far left? Or the guy in the middle? Not only is he frickin hot, he's amazing. MWAH!!! That's my baby in Japan. Here's the obligatory Buddha shot. Those other geeks are the fab men of Spoken who you should be voting for right now. Is it possible to have anymore links in one post?
Oh and yes, that timestamp does say 4:36 AM and it is correct. /zzzzzz If you know my phone number, do not call me. I will be asleep. :)
says MarissaD at 9/03/2001 04:36:00 AM
Emotional overload .... I'll update with the goods on the bach party tomorrow. Bit of a rough night. Fights suck.
